Let me start by saying that I’ve been doing a bit of “soul searching” if you will and I really just wanted to offer transparency in sharing my heart with you today.
The truth is that I am in a season of not having it all figured out, and thats a bit foreign to me if I’m being honest! I am certainly that person that needs it all figured out all the time, so I am way out of my comfort zone here!
It’s been a learning experience becoming a work from home mom. I feel so fortunate that I am able to stay home and raise Henley, but I also have been feeling confused about my path as a business owner and mother. This newest chapter in my life has certainly come with lots of new obsticals of work/life balance to learn. On top of that, I feel in my heart that its time for a new step in my business. A new area of growth, something new and fresh to add to Abby Hudsn Photography.
I started a newsletter. I’ve considered creating a free download for other photographers. I even felt super pumped about creating a begininers photography workshop! All of that sounds like a good plan and sounds like what I should be doing…
But the truth is that I somehow felt like I was chasing someone else’s dreams. The newsletters, the educational content, the workshops, the idea of being an educator… its all very on trend right now in this industry and it took me a conversation with a dear friend to understand that it is a trend and maybe not a title that everyone is meant to hold.
She spoke to me about understanding that God want to use her to impact the people around her and not the masses and that was GOLD to my heart, yall!! Because she’s so right!! Not all of us are meant to be at the top of our industry nationally. AND THATS OK!!! We aren’t meant to do everything that everyone else is doing, but quite frankly I bet that there are a lot of us out there that are following a path meant for someone else and not meant for ourselves.
Another sweet industry friend also gave me advice that was gold to hear. She said to give myself the chance to experience this season. She reminded me that I don’t have to figure it out right now at this very minute! She also inspired me to find that thing that sets my soul on fire because that will be the thing that I’m supposed to add to my business, rather than following lead from others.
Thats such truth yall (!!!) because if I give myself a chance to sit back, take a break, and experience this season of unknown, then when I do finally figure out what that next step is for me in my business, then I wont be guessing, I wont be following, I wont be copying, or going with what’s on trend… Instead, I will KNOW that I am following a path that is meant for my, my business, and my family.
So for now- instead of fighting to figure it out- Im just going to BE and be present. I’m going to continue to serve my clients well. I’m going to continue to create an amazing experience for them. I’m going to continue to love on people. I’m going to keep being the very best momma that I can be and also continue to love my husband harder than I ever have and be the wife that I know he deserves.
And maybe thats enough for right now. Maybe thats what this season is supposed to be about for me. And maybe, just maybe, this season of waiting and patience and unknown is setting me up for the next great season that God has in store. That way, when I know what my next move is, I know that I’ll be chasing my own heart and my own version of success and not someone else’s
I share this with you today in hopes that if you have a similar feeling in your heart, if you’re in a season of unknown, if you’re feeling like you’re on trend rather than following your heart- I want you to know that youre not alone and to know that its good to embrace this season!! Hugs to you all and if you ever need a listening ear, know that you can reach out to me because Im in the same season right now 🙂
And here are a few new favorite photos of Henley girl because who can resist that smile?!